New Leaf

In recent thought, I've decided to turn over a new leaf. Though, it happened in January, around New Years, I wouldn't call it a New Year's Resolution. That is something one does at the turn of the year as a promise to give something up or try a new habit. While I think it's good that people try and change for the better, I don't believe in waiting till a holiday or certain day to better yourself. It is the same idea with parties and holidays or special occasions. Just because it is a certain day out of the year doesn't mean that it is the perfect opportunity to get wasted or participate in destructive behavior. I think that making excuses is a habit of the lazy. Just because it is a certain date, doesn't mean it's time to become unruly and stop working. Vacations are nice, but out of reward, not because of laziness.

But it was around that time when I had a month off of school, and I realized that I hadn't been taking proper care of myself here at Wellesley. I had been studying and growing intellectually, but I was ignoring the physical side of me, the emotional, and the spiritual. I realized that I was in a lot of pain both because I felt like I wasn't getting enough love an affection from those around me, and from myself. I realized that in coming back, I needed t take extra care of myself.

So I have been, I've gone out and gotten affection from those around me, gotten little ego boosts here and there, haven't been gorging myself, and laughing more. I have also started doing yoga more regularly than I have in the past couple of years.

My first introduction to it was when I was 12, and we did it for P.E. at my middle school. I loved it. That and the Karate that we did. Next, in high school I did it here and there both in school, and for stretching for the Crew Team I was on. I stopped when I first went to Wellesley, and became depressed. One summer, after leaving Wellesley, I had the fortune of making friends with someone who was training to get her certification to teach it, and she would teach us so that she could get practice. I came home and did it on and off by myself. And now, back at Wellesley, I am taking a class twice a week, and doing it twice a week on my own.

So yoga is one of the first things that I am doing to better myself. It is helping me to center myself, quiet my mind, and practice breathing. The stretches are amazing, I feel so good to be sore all over; I cannot wait to see where this takes me.